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Finnegan and The Hughes

Finding Joy in the everyday

Finnegan

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I’ve been missing from the blog as I have had no idea how to say this, what to write, how to use the exact words to describe the love I had and the heartache I have been feeling.  We lost our dear, sweet and incredibly loved Finnegan a month ago.  I spilled peanut butter on the floor today and nearly lost my mind when I realized I needed to clean it myself and Finnegan couldn’t be rushing in to lick up his favorite human food.    Oh my Finnegan, my sidekick, face licker, foot warmer and pup that I loved more than I ever knew was humanly possibly.  It’s been so hard navigating this path without you.  The silence is deafening, nobody sits on my lap, the floors are a mess (thank you for always cleaning them for me!!), my feet are cold at night and you just won’t jump out of your photos no matter how long I stare at them.  The kids miss you!  You were their first and favorite playmate.  Now they lay on the floor alone, nobody lays on them, nobody

As if waking in the middle of the night to get water and realizing nobody came with me isn’t hard enough, I had to teach myself to walk down the stairs like a normal person and not one about to be herded to the left by her Aussie.  I think of getting another dog because I miss having my companion but then I know they won’t replace you.  No dog will ever look deep into my soul and howl with me.  You tolerated so much with our family.  You let Hayley and me dress you up for years and never complained,  just asked nicely for a biscuit when you were done.  Posed for photos, played fetch, howled on demand.  You would lay with us, wrestle with Rob and scoot over to make room for whoever was arguing that you liked them best and they needed to be next to you.  Nobody comes running in when I opened the cheese drawer in the refrigerator, I don’t trip over you anymore when I do the dishes, I walk everywhere in the house ALONE…I am so lonely without you.  It’s been over a month and I still can’t sleep.  I wake up and think about you, I hate the rainy nights because it reminds me of all the nights I spent calming you down during the storms.  We brought the kids to see fireworks this year because we didn’t have you home to reassure that the world wan’t blowing up and you would be ok.  Life is so different without you Finnegan and I just don’t like it.
On June 26th  I brought Finnegan in to Penn Vet where he was diagnosed with lymphoma.  It was 3 days before his 11th birthday, 3 days before the birthday that he shares with his human brother Derek who was about to turn 10 (alone) no annual brothers birthday photo this year.  On the day Finnegan was diagnosed I sat in the cage with him for about 2 hours while we waited for his results, I just didn’t want to leave him.  When the vet told me it was cancer I lost it, we started chemo an hour or so later and Finnegan ended up passing away that night, in our living room, after the kids when to bed laying with his bestest best friend Rob.  He went out on his terms, he wasn’t up for the battle and didn’t suffer long.  We have not stopped suffering, missing him and loving him but in the end, I am so grateful that he didn’t suffer.  I wanted to write an eloquent and deep post so you all would know how loved Finnegan was but the words won’t come, my eyes are over flowing and I will just leave you with some photos of our sweet loving boy

Rest in Peace sweet Finny boy.  Sunset’s Handsome Finnegan Hughes was deeply loved and went over the rainbow bridge on June 26, 2018 leaving behind 4 shattered hearts and beautiful memories to last a lifetime.

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  1. Jen Murphy says

    This is a beautiful tribute to Finny, he was such a cool dog & so loved. Dogs are such a part of our lives, I promise you will enjoy his memories & laugh at the funny things for years to come. We remember our dogs and the silly things they did at random times and it always makes us smile & makes it feel they are in a way still with us. Hugs to you all.

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  2. The Sisters' Hood says

    All the love dear friend .. these words just fill my heart, and make my eyes pour. I am so, so sorry for your loss. Finnegan will always be your everything, but he will guide a new pup thro your lives one day. I promise. Much love and peace.

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    • Sarah says

      He so was our everything!! I swear it was like his life and we were just living in it!! Thank you for the kind and sweet words!!! Sending love your way Nicole!!

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  3. Anonymous says

    I feel your pain, we lost our beloved Mila May 23, 2018. She had just turned 3 the end of March. We too had her at Penn for surgery for a paralyzed larnyx but she didn’t even make it 3 weeks after her surgery. She winded up having mega esophagus which the bet believes was a nerve disorder and it was also affecting her brain. You wrote a beautiful tribute and i understand exactly how you feel. It has been 2 months and we are still crying and upset. Miss her terribly and the emptiness is too much to handle. I am so sorry for your loss!

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    • Sarah says

      3!! Oh I’m so sorry! Penn is incredible, it’s the best place in the world for answers and help. I will always be grateful for the compassion we were shown there

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  4. Anonymous says

    I am so very sorry for your loss. We have to remember that they are Borrowed Angels and God had another Journey planned for your Finnigan, you will see him again this I am sure of..Meanwhile he will be watching over your family, look up and you will see signs he is there..RIP Finnigan

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  5. Melissa says

    This post says everything About how much finnegan was a part of the fabric of your life! He was that constant force of unconditional love and I can feel it in the way you write about your life with him. You are so lucky that you had such a sweet soul to navigate this crazy world with you and your crew and I hope wherever he is -he is free of pain and that he knows the gifts he gave you will live on in your hearts. May his memory forever be a blessing

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  6. BJ says

    Finnegan was certainly loved deeply♡ We know that Finnegan was greeted by our Rudder who crossed the rainbow bridge April 27th. So many beautiful souls have gone to heaven this year. They miss us as terribly as we miss then. They are with us everyday sending their love in many ways. Watch for the signs. All the best to to you and your family♡♡♡.

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    • Sarah says

      I love to think he is watching us and watching for signs of him. Sometimes I hear the wind chimes and I think of him!!! Sorry about your Rudder!!

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  7. Anonymous says

    Oh Sarah 😔I am so sorry for this incredible loss. The lonely feels and quietness in the home is unbearable. The pictures❤️Finnegan made you a mommy and started your family-That is unforgettable. Finnegan has taken a piece of your heart over the 🌈 never to be filled-that Emptyness will stay with you forever because thats what happens when you love someone hard. Love you dear friend and your sweet words and strong love for your puppy dog. Xoxo. Sending you peace and love.

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